The Quickest Instant

It seems to me that love can come in the most obscure forms. I like this, because it challenges my working definitions of what love is to me. I know that alot of my sight has been darkened, that alot of my heart has been muddied by the culture in which I reside. I know that it is harder for me to judge what is right to do, then inturn to do it. Beyond that, to get something that was not my hope, but as far as it stands for that moment, it is the most loving thing the creator knew to do for me. I am loved deeply. I am loved beyond my own perception of love, and it hurts, but I recieve its goodness, because my love is short sighted, not patient, always envious, always boastful, and always puts me before everything else. This love will end. The love I recieve will not only change my life in the quickest instant, but all those around me as well. The Quickest Instant and it all changes.

Cant Lose You (solo Acoustic) - Derek Webb



On a slightly different note, I've started including a song in every blog. Music that has been important to me at some point, whether now or years ago. Today I bring to you a vid from Derek Webb called "Can't lose you". I first heard this song when I was a freshman in high school. From then onward it would be stapled to my heart foreshadowing something that is only coming into view now more than 6 years later. Comment and Enjoy :-)

The Adventure yet Seen, but mine just the same...

I've determined that I'm ready. Ready to brave the world...I think. Ha I'm not real sure on that one. But I've been thinking about what my life might look like after college(1 year from now). It is my hope to start embarking on the most incredible adventure and mission that I could ever hope for or imagine. This adventure would be filled with uncertainty, heart, passion, art, music and art, and all inside of Jesus! Faith would be the language by which I live and move and breathe. Everything I embark upon will be a test, that will only strengthen my resolve to love harder, deeper, longer, and more passionately than ever before. I will love in a way that exceeds my capability. Art will be the avenue for change. Inspiration will sweep through hearts like a violent wind, and the Holy Spirit will consume a generation because of these things. I've recently invisioned over the last year having someone to do life with once I embark upon the mission, the ADVENTURE with...I cannot presume to know how that will work out, but who ever they are... I pray for your path of righteousness and faith, and art, abandonment. May God continue to lead you towards my great adventure, until it's our great adventure. Watch out world, because we cannot be stopped!!! Amen.

I think Glen has the passion in this song that mirrors how I will relentlessly pursue these idealistic dreams... enjoy.

Clarity

There seems to be, every so often, an obscure line that one is never quite sure if he has crossed. Why is this line obscure, one might ask? Is it because of things yet to come, or things all ready passed. It is the action of faith that makes clear something that cannot be seen. Yet It is quite a thing, faith is, for it itself is unseen. So faith becomes the lens by which we peer through to gain clarity on an unpredictable, unthinkable, unimaginable, unseeable situation. It is a grand thing when put in this place to use faith to see more clearly and vibrantly than in any attempt made by the most fine reason or sharp interpretation. I thank you, my God, for showing me the depths of my weakness.

Life.
Life has been something of the sort. What "Sort" , I am not completely sure of... It has been said that my place at the table is to serve, not to sit. There comes a time when one loses track of time. The things seen as important today fall quickly away while awaiting things that seem vastly important tomorrow.
Yet I lose the only real thing I have in my life, by looking and hoping for the thing yet to be. For tomorrow is no more real than the grandest fairytale. For while tomorrow can hold virtually anything the imagination can conceive and more, it has no more realistic value about it than snow white and the 7 dwarfs or Santa clause feeding the poor.
The question now becomes, what do I do with my hopes and dreams and everything in between. Well I say to you that I have no answer, but that which comes unnaturally so..."do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow has enough worries of it's own" and here I say is were I love, and Love, LOVE until the day...the day...the day is over. This might just be the beginning of a dream, whether mine or His, or Hers, or there's that no one has neither thought nor seen.

Here. Now. All ready come to Pass.

Here. Now. Soon to be. All ready done.

Trust... broken or redirected? 

Perception is often skewed as it drips away from the painting before us.

The painting... oh the painting is far to large for us to see in its' entirety.

No... we peer through tinny droplets as they pass before us, as they wash over us, as they are absorbed by us.

Its hard to have any certainty... in fact with our sight, or lack there of, we have no certainty in this world.

But I, then do not see through this world entirely. No, I see through a far more revealing lens that only shows things come to pass. Things that I could not have ever seen had I not peered through the scope in the right way.

The scope my friend is good, and its' sight is more clear than crystal, more pure than the purest of gold.

To glimpse through this lens, one must first trust. 

Trust first, and you will see more vibrantly, more extravagantly, more intrinsically than ever before.

But you must trust that these things are true of the lens, for if not, you will see nothing clearly and most certainly be lost and most certainly be confused.

Yours Truly,

NW 

The Great Pursuit

Pursuit of the Lord might stem from a passion for the Lord. Now in a marriage, some might say that one's passion would die out. I say that it does not have to, but only change its form. When I first came into relationship with the Lord, I was passionate in burst, and passionate in my emotions towards Him. Over time, my passion has matured, and now comes in a long term pursuit of Him, and being relentless in my desire to know Him more intimately and deeply and be more and more captivated by His very nature. In the same way, I believe my passion for my wife will work the same way. I believe the Lord will drive my passion for my wife, because it will first be received by Him... just some random thoughts.

What hint...

What hint have i found...

What hint have i found to presume about this life?

Walking down a bridge at 12:30 leads me much deeper now than it did then. Swimming in a fountain 4 ft deeps drowns me with the unknown of what this could be. Rolling unto my hurt allows me to feel comforted. 

Thank you, for now i feel like i have some sense of the future, as scary as it maybe.